♥March 14th,2013: Exciting news?♥

I'm back with a couple of exciting things to say ^^, Okay so the first is that I've finally got my passport yay!! After what felt like forever waiting it arrived last Thursday sitting waiting for me when I got home. For once I don't actually have to complain about the British Post Office high five for that ㅋㅋ

The second piece of news and quite possibly the most exciting thing to date for me is, *ohh the suspense*  I am going to South Korea! Yes that's right who would of thought my first journey abroad would be to Seoul/Suwon. People have told me that it's not really your normal place to visit, especially if it's your first trip abroad. But hey I'm not your normal British girl I guess. Besides the whole lets go to Majorca or Ibiza thing where everyone else seems to go oh and don't get me started on Benidorm. It's just something that doesn't interest me at all especially the likes of Benidorm where it's literately Brits second home. What's the point of visiting a different country when all your surrounded by more British people. Not that I have anything against that it's just that I feel when visiting foreign lands you have to properly experience the country by speaking and surrounded by the locals. Plus the best way to learn about the country and culture is by getting to know the locals. 

Anyway I digress so yes that's right South Korea is my first destination, flights are already booked with British airways. I'll be in Korea from April 3rd to April 18th that's 2 weeks of pure adventure can't wait.! There are a few places I want to see while I'm there one being Gyeongbokgung Palace in Seoul the royal palace that was home to many generations of royalty throughout the years. And the other being the arty, indie part of Seoul, Hongdae which is located very close to Hongki University it's a well known part of Seoul for it's urban arts, and indie music culture. Which is perfect for me seeing as though I love everything and anything to do with the arts, be it music painting, photography ect... Plus there is a bonus of the fact many of my favourite k-dramas where filmed there, one being Flower Boy Ramyeon Shop 꽃미남 라면가게.

As well as seeing the beautiful Palaces and traditional buildings Korea has to offer shopping is also high on my to do list. Being in the worlds beauty hub just that alone is more than an excuse to shop till I drop, but best check the bank first ㅋㅋ^^  Street after street of beauty and cosmetic stores is a make-up junkies heaven believe me it's going to take all my will power not to spend all my money on cosmetics. But there are a few brands in Korea that we can't get here in the UK so I'm excited to try some of those brands out. Etude House and the Face shop are the two I'm excited about. Slightly worried about if everything will actually fit back in my suit case but that's besides the point. 

Although I'll be busy sight seeing and what not I'm planning on keeping you guys up to date on my trip. So what I'm basically saying is be prepared to be bombarded by photo's, possibly videos and posts while I'm away. Well I guess it's about time to start thinking about what to pack, if you have any suggestions do let me know it is my first time abroad after all. 

♥January 29th 2013: Diary♥

Jan,29th,2013

Dear Diary,

Hello it's Emma here So......I've finally started to get things sorted for travelling to Korea... YAY!! happy! Okay I haven't got my passport yetㅠㅠ but it's in the process now hopefully I will receive it soon. Cause I am planing to go on holiday in April so if everything goes smoothly I will be visiting Korea for about 2 weeks maybe. It's my first time going abroad so I'm really excited and nervous too. For a start the flight to Korea is about 10 hours so I think stocking up on some books or fully load my iphone with music might be a good idea. I haven't been on an aeroplane before but I've been told many times that it's the most amazing feeling when the engines starts and you hear the roar of the plane. At the moment imagining that feeling is all I can do but very soon hearing that will be reality. And looking out the window seeing the tiny lights seeing just how small everything in my city is in comparison to the rest of the world. Stepping off the plane, the scent of a different country surrounding me surrounded by the high buildings of Korea. I wonder what my reaction will be...is Seoul and the rest of Korea different from my imagination are the sights as beautiful as I have envisioned? I have a feeling my camera lens will become my eyes snapping photos of everything in sight.

I've herd that Seoul has many wonderful places to visit like 경복궁  (Gyongbokgung Palace) and cause it's going to be April the flowers of spring will be in full bloom. If there is one thing I love and that is the colours of spring the pastel colours sprinkled everywhere like magic fairy dust. And the scent of the beautiful fragrant flowers as they dance in the cool spring breeze. I am very much looking forward to that indeed. 

There are a few things I am worried about and that is language... I can't speak Korean very well, but with the help of Mr.J I am sure everything will be okay. Even so I am still just a little worried about that. Another thing is actually the foods, most food dishes in England are rather plain in taste compared to the spice of Korean foods. Actually I don't think it's a worry it's more like I am curious as to how spicy the foods are. I can just imagine being in a restaurant in tears where I'm not used to the spicy foods...a little embarrassing but funny at the same time ㅋㅋ  

But the one thing I am most looking forward to and that is seeing Mr.J again, he came to visit me in January so I'm really excited to see him again. Mr.J I'm looking forward to seeing your city and travelling around Seoul with you!! I really want to see your favourite places in Seoul I'm looking forward to it. I will see you again very soon :)

Anyway I do hope I will get my passport soon so I can hurry and continue to plan and prepare for my trip:)

♥Something Personal~ Living with PCOS♥

Living with PCOS...

Well as the title says this post will be about something a little more personal than usual. I don't tend to speak about my personal things a lot but I think this is something that I want to share with you girls. This is a topic I really don't tend to speak about and on a hole tend to avoid. But I want to help and share my experiences with other girls that have PCOS and hopefully help you in some way. 

MY STORY:

About two years ago I was diagnosed with Polycystic ovary syndrome or PCOS for short. At that time I was 18 years old and really confused, it was the first time I had ever herd about Polycystic ovary syndrome before. And at the time I didn't really understand what it was or how it would effect me at all. For anyone that doesn't know what it is PCOS is something that effects 5-10% of women 12-45 years of age. There are three main features of PCOS: *note you don't have to have all three to be diagnosed with PCOS*

• The first being cysts that develop around the ovaries i.e Polycystic ovaries.
• The second being ovulation, a failure to release eggs from the ovaries.
• And thirdly male hormones being higher than normal and or male hormones that are more active than normal.

  With those three main features it could lead you to the following symptoms which are all... really not very nice, I have some but not all of the following symptoms:

• Excessive body hair (Hirsutism) *I suffer from.
• Irregular or light periods. *I suffer from.
• Infertility (problems getting pregnant)
• Weight gain *I suffer from.
• Acne.
• Hair loss from the head.

All these symptoms as a girl sounds really awful I know. When I first went to the doctor to find out why I was having irregular periods I thought 'Oh I'll just have to speak with my doctor then possibly take some medication to help.' But I was wrong.....After explaining to my doctor that my periods were irregular and that I was having a period possibly once every 7 months, sometimes none at all. And during the time when I didn't have any periods I was suffering from a lot of pain in my lower back and the lower part of my tummy. I was told that there were two options for me I could take the pill I was told it would begin to make my periods regular again, but due to my weight I couldn't take the pill. (at the time I was at my heaviest weight I'd ever been touching the scales at just under 16st , 221lbs, 100kg) So instead I was offered the mini pill which is pretty much the same. I was given that and told to come back after taking it for a month. Sadly it didn't work, yes I got a period but it lasted for just over 2 weeks so made the decision to take myself off the medication. After going back to the doctors I was sent to the hospital to have an ultrasound scan and blood tests done. When I went back to the doctors for the results it was then that I was diagnosed with PCOS.

Frankly speaking since then the symptoms I have are worst than when I was first diagnosed. Being a girl of course I find the symptoms really difficult to deal with, they really have affected my confidence and taken me to an all time low. I've felt like a freak because of excess body hair that I have on my face, arms and the rapid hair growth. To me it's just not feminine to have facial hair, even if when I've been told by family members they can't see anything it's just the thought of it being there even though it's hidden. Facial hair coupled with weight problems, and finding it extremely hard to lose weight can bring the strongest of girls down. It's difficult to have PCOS I've felt alone at time's and have lost complete confidence in myself too, it's difficult for people without it to understand how it feels. Each case is different our bodies aren't the same and it affects us girls all differently. 

But I truly believe that speaking with other girls that have PCOS and sharing our experiences, and our challenges with PCOS. We can have peace of mind that we aren't alone and that we shouldn't have to feel like freaks because of the various symptoms we may or may not suffer from. 

After neglecting myself since being diagnosed I have decided to fight back against my PCOS, lose weight, become healthy and get my confidence back. I would like to share my battle against this and hopefully inspire   some of you girls that suffer from it to do the same.

Please know you are not alone in the fight against this awful syndrome I have it too. If you have PCOS or know someone that does please leave me a comment and tell me your story or send me an email. I would love to hear from other girls that also suffer from PCOS. 

If you stuck with this and read to the end I'd like to thank you, this post was a little difficult for me to write but I hope it will help anyone that has the same. 

Until next time 

bye bye

Sailor Mars  ♥
xx